Dinner
Monday 5th March 07 1:30am
Apparently Sunday 4th MAR 07 was the last day of the Lunar New Year. And i didn't know it until i was informed by my friend about it. Some chinese i am huh....
Anyway i thought well, since it was the last day, and i was feeling rather erm..... Emo, I smsed Jon, Alan and Isaac if they are able to come my place for a dinner gathering.
Lo and Behold, They ALL actually said YES.
I was thankful.
I went about after work to get the paper towels, plates and bought a whole roast chicken from the chicken rice stall.
I'm gonna have a good meal tonite. I was sure of it.
They all arrived at about 8pm. For the first time in a long time, i actually sat down to have a dinnerwith the people i truely care about. It was a magic moment. One which i will forever remember and knew that i HAD to blog about. I just regret i could not get this on camera cause well, my hands were coated with chicken oil. LOL
They may not even know it, but that dinner meant alot to me. It made me thankful for their friendship and the fact that i can actually have the good fortune to have dinner at home with them. Of course, it also brought back painful emotions for me.
The table was missing one person. If he had been around, it would have been perfect, isn't it? Although i have tried, but i am still feeling loss and emptiness inside me. The pain of the betrayal and the confusion of the whole episode. It's not an easy mess of emotions to deal with.
After dinner, we chatted abit, i revised with them the Aikido moves and Alan and Isaac started playing the PS2. After awhile, Jon naturally became bored and suggested a car ride.
And ride we did. I drove them to Changi Village, got a round at the Airport Strip road and then all the way to East Coast Park. With windows down and all. It was truely a night to remember. We had our laughs and our chats.
But they actually made me quite unhappy the last few days.
Grading is supposed to be a very personal and honourable thing. Yet, they did not even want to pay their grading fees promptly. It's not as if i did not already informed them about it earlier.
Isaac decided it's more important to buy a jersy then pay for the grading, and Jon keeps forgetting to pay, or so he says.
Isaac is taking his O levels this year. Time is very important for him. I could not bear to let him miss this grading. And as for Jon, it's about time for him to upgrade his grade already.
I want them all to get their grades, surpass me even in terms of skill and grades. It's the least i can do for them. Do they even realise that? Do they even know how much i really care for them?
I guess unfortunately not as lately, i get the feeling i have been taken for granted. Not just by one of them, but all three of them.
Am i worth anything to them? Or am i just a convinent depository?
Will i ever know?
EarlGrey
Apparently Sunday 4th MAR 07 was the last day of the Lunar New Year. And i didn't know it until i was informed by my friend about it. Some chinese i am huh....
Anyway i thought well, since it was the last day, and i was feeling rather erm..... Emo, I smsed Jon, Alan and Isaac if they are able to come my place for a dinner gathering.
Lo and Behold, They ALL actually said YES.
I was thankful.
I went about after work to get the paper towels, plates and bought a whole roast chicken from the chicken rice stall.
I'm gonna have a good meal tonite. I was sure of it.
They all arrived at about 8pm. For the first time in a long time, i actually sat down to have a dinnerwith the people i truely care about. It was a magic moment. One which i will forever remember and knew that i HAD to blog about. I just regret i could not get this on camera cause well, my hands were coated with chicken oil. LOL
They may not even know it, but that dinner meant alot to me. It made me thankful for their friendship and the fact that i can actually have the good fortune to have dinner at home with them. Of course, it also brought back painful emotions for me.
The table was missing one person. If he had been around, it would have been perfect, isn't it? Although i have tried, but i am still feeling loss and emptiness inside me. The pain of the betrayal and the confusion of the whole episode. It's not an easy mess of emotions to deal with.
After dinner, we chatted abit, i revised with them the Aikido moves and Alan and Isaac started playing the PS2. After awhile, Jon naturally became bored and suggested a car ride.
And ride we did. I drove them to Changi Village, got a round at the Airport Strip road and then all the way to East Coast Park. With windows down and all. It was truely a night to remember. We had our laughs and our chats.
But they actually made me quite unhappy the last few days.
Grading is supposed to be a very personal and honourable thing. Yet, they did not even want to pay their grading fees promptly. It's not as if i did not already informed them about it earlier.
Isaac decided it's more important to buy a jersy then pay for the grading, and Jon keeps forgetting to pay, or so he says.
Isaac is taking his O levels this year. Time is very important for him. I could not bear to let him miss this grading. And as for Jon, it's about time for him to upgrade his grade already.
I want them all to get their grades, surpass me even in terms of skill and grades. It's the least i can do for them. Do they even realise that? Do they even know how much i really care for them?
I guess unfortunately not as lately, i get the feeling i have been taken for granted. Not just by one of them, but all three of them.
Am i worth anything to them? Or am i just a convinent depository?
Will i ever know?
EarlGrey
1 Comments:
helLo!!!!its been a long time hor...since i left a comment >.< i left the blogging world for a while..tsk tsk...
i'm not the best person to say this to u...but..perhaps..maybe they are still young...they just cannot think the way u do ): do wat u deem fit ba ya? =D jia you worx...
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