Betrayal
Sunday 14th JAN 07 10:15am
Sometimes, i really don't know if we human beings are "evolved" or just another animal that walks on 2 legs, wears clothing and talks. The Durai case have recently being held in court and in just 1 week, while following the developments, i swear i had flooded more then one whole copy of newspapers with my spit. Why such a violent reaction?
I cannot stand people who enrich/power themselves at the expense of others. Admittedly, i'm not a perfect person myself. I have my own share of things i had done which i am not proud of. At least i have a conscience.
I am not peeved because this Durai earns SGD$24,000 a month. To be honest, i think this is a fair amount to pay a CEO of any organisation. But wait. To be given a 12 month BONUS? with pay increments BACKDATED a whole BLOODY YEAR? Maybe that can be accepted if he was CEO of a commercial entity. But NO..... this is a Charity. If he would had just stopped at a salary of 24K a month i would have been ok with it. But he took FIRST CLASS flights. SIGNED for purchases on the Charity's Credit Card, lived in posh hotels, and had his personal car paid for by the very organisation he worked for. All the while using money from the donating public who's monthly combined income may not even hit SGD$2,000.
This is a blatant abuse of the trust that has been given to him. It's.... DISGUSTING. He was effectively making the public work their dicks and breasts off to FINANCE his EXTRAVAGANT LIFESTYLE. I really cannot accept this. I'm sorry. I really hope he rots in hell.
And as if that is not good enough, he kept insisting he was innocent. Like HARLOW. i'll like him to have his arse raped by a gay boy then have his assailant tell him "Oh sorry Durai, it's not my fault, it's just that your butt hole was opened so big, my dicky decided to investigate it". LET'S JUST SEE HOW HE FEELS.
And oh, theres more. The board of directors, whom, as we layman understand it, is there to DIRECT the operations of the organisation, started to point their fingers at one another when they are brought to task. "He did it!" "He was the one who approved everything!"
Please. How old already? You idiots are DIRECTORS for pete's sakes. Adults, highly educated right? all professionals right? the status as director of the NKF is a BIG BIG boost to career right? then now when you actually need to JUSTIFY your position as directors, YOU POINT YOUR KIDDY FINGERS AT EACH OTHER? Are you little kids or what? Where is your integrity?
OMG. just writing about this makes me sick. They are no worse then robbers, cheats, swindlers. They should just be jailed a long time and caned for all i care. Let their asses be torn apart.
Ok. Back now to home news. LOL
Work has been relatively ok. It's beginning to shape up for me. I really have a good feeling about this year. Things would change for the better i guess.
Of course, there is no fire without spark. I'm still recovering from the very big betrayal that Zax has done to me. I know that i have promised never to reveal who he is, but since he can do such things to me, why should i still honour my word to him? The fact that i have given and taken care of him the best i could is no secret and i dare to say it out here. If he's reading this post, i dare him to refute what i'am saying. I want to move on. but first, i want to write things out. i want this to be a lesson for me that i will remember for the rest of my life. How people can just walk away, and betray you at a moments notice. Like what Zax can do. He even goes as far as bad mouth me behind my back to my other juniors. At the same time, use the things i have given him like there is nothing happening in the world. He would not talk to me, but would still have me on his MSN, i'm very sure he still has my Handphone number. And he still turns up for training. I brought him into Aikido, i introduced him to the art and the friends that he has made. But all this time, he just throws this right back in my face.
Alan asked me why i don't just delete Zax away if he dosen't want to do it.
It's simple. I still love him alot. It still hurts me very much whenever i see him and there is not even a look of recognition in his eyes.
I am still hurting... and i guess i will never fully recover. But i have "talked" about it here. I guess, mentally i feel as if i have "complained" and at least i feel better now.
Work will be my medication now, and hopefully, i can learn to trust people again
EarlGrey
Sometimes, i really don't know if we human beings are "evolved" or just another animal that walks on 2 legs, wears clothing and talks. The Durai case have recently being held in court and in just 1 week, while following the developments, i swear i had flooded more then one whole copy of newspapers with my spit. Why such a violent reaction?
I cannot stand people who enrich/power themselves at the expense of others. Admittedly, i'm not a perfect person myself. I have my own share of things i had done which i am not proud of. At least i have a conscience.
I am not peeved because this Durai earns SGD$24,000 a month. To be honest, i think this is a fair amount to pay a CEO of any organisation. But wait. To be given a 12 month BONUS? with pay increments BACKDATED a whole BLOODY YEAR? Maybe that can be accepted if he was CEO of a commercial entity. But NO..... this is a Charity. If he would had just stopped at a salary of 24K a month i would have been ok with it. But he took FIRST CLASS flights. SIGNED for purchases on the Charity's Credit Card, lived in posh hotels, and had his personal car paid for by the very organisation he worked for. All the while using money from the donating public who's monthly combined income may not even hit SGD$2,000.
This is a blatant abuse of the trust that has been given to him. It's.... DISGUSTING. He was effectively making the public work their dicks and breasts off to FINANCE his EXTRAVAGANT LIFESTYLE. I really cannot accept this. I'm sorry. I really hope he rots in hell.
And as if that is not good enough, he kept insisting he was innocent. Like HARLOW. i'll like him to have his arse raped by a gay boy then have his assailant tell him "Oh sorry Durai, it's not my fault, it's just that your butt hole was opened so big, my dicky decided to investigate it". LET'S JUST SEE HOW HE FEELS.
And oh, theres more. The board of directors, whom, as we layman understand it, is there to DIRECT the operations of the organisation, started to point their fingers at one another when they are brought to task. "He did it!" "He was the one who approved everything!"
Please. How old already? You idiots are DIRECTORS for pete's sakes. Adults, highly educated right? all professionals right? the status as director of the NKF is a BIG BIG boost to career right? then now when you actually need to JUSTIFY your position as directors, YOU POINT YOUR KIDDY FINGERS AT EACH OTHER? Are you little kids or what? Where is your integrity?
OMG. just writing about this makes me sick. They are no worse then robbers, cheats, swindlers. They should just be jailed a long time and caned for all i care. Let their asses be torn apart.
Ok. Back now to home news. LOL
Work has been relatively ok. It's beginning to shape up for me. I really have a good feeling about this year. Things would change for the better i guess.
Of course, there is no fire without spark. I'm still recovering from the very big betrayal that Zax has done to me. I know that i have promised never to reveal who he is, but since he can do such things to me, why should i still honour my word to him? The fact that i have given and taken care of him the best i could is no secret and i dare to say it out here. If he's reading this post, i dare him to refute what i'am saying. I want to move on. but first, i want to write things out. i want this to be a lesson for me that i will remember for the rest of my life. How people can just walk away, and betray you at a moments notice. Like what Zax can do. He even goes as far as bad mouth me behind my back to my other juniors. At the same time, use the things i have given him like there is nothing happening in the world. He would not talk to me, but would still have me on his MSN, i'm very sure he still has my Handphone number. And he still turns up for training. I brought him into Aikido, i introduced him to the art and the friends that he has made. But all this time, he just throws this right back in my face.
Alan asked me why i don't just delete Zax away if he dosen't want to do it.
It's simple. I still love him alot. It still hurts me very much whenever i see him and there is not even a look of recognition in his eyes.
I am still hurting... and i guess i will never fully recover. But i have "talked" about it here. I guess, mentally i feel as if i have "complained" and at least i feel better now.
Work will be my medication now, and hopefully, i can learn to trust people again
EarlGrey
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