Resolutions?
Sunday 31st DEC 06 1:30pm
Now that the year is coming to a close, have you gotten yourselves any resolutions as is the practice for most people? What have you gained/lost this year? Was it a fruitful year? For me, i have gained little and lost almost everything. Especially lost a big portion of it very near to years' end. All the plans and hopes of celebrating the new year dashed, just like that in an instant. Yet, i have gained many valuable lessons in life through all these episodes. But what has already happened cannot be undone. What's the point of dwelling in it forever, knowing that ultimately, one can only do ones best, and leave the rest up to fate. So for the new year, i have made a few resolutions that i will try to keep/reach. And here they are in no particular order,
1) Earn more money. I have decided that all these while, i have been giving people too much. I'm not a materialistic person by nature, and i always believe that we should always share what we have with the people you love and care about. But because of this, i find myself constantly empty in my wallet. I got him a watch, laptop, paid for his first Aikido lesson. I'm NOT saying this because i am trying to find fault with him, rather, to remind myself that maybe i should be alittle more aware in future. At the end of the day, no one is gonna say "oh wow, you got so much things for him, you are really so good to him." They can just turn their heads around and walk away, like as if there is nothing even worth keeping in the friendship.
2) Build up my career. I think this really dosen't need an explaination right? Don't have career, how to settle down and have a family? Yes..... settle down as in get married and have children. I may be gay, but my "tra la la" still knows its duty in life you know. SHEESH
3) Get myself a car. There are 24 hrs in a day, you get a 10 hr full time job, there are still 14 more hours for you to earn money from. If you spend the time taking public transport, you end up wasting "X" number of hours JUST to commute from point A to B, cutting the time you have left to earn that extra cash to put in the bank every month. A car to me is a tool and something that helps me to earn that extra dollars towards my savings. Dosen't have to be an expensive car. Desiel car also i can. Mini van ALSO can. As long can bring me places can liao.
4) Have at least SGD$10,000 in savings by the end of the year. Ok.... this one is abit far fetched, By hey, we can always aim for a target right? 10k a year, 3 years 30K, then i can open the provision shop i always wanted liao lor..... So if i have my own shop to provide me sustaining income, then use the flexible timing to do something to get that extra income, plus some investment here and there for that passive income. Well.... i think i should be able to get by quite comfortably.
5) Improve my Aikido skills. I love this art alot. I have made great friends through this art and even found people i truely love and care about. But sadly, it was all wishful thinking on my part in the end. He wont even talk or look at me during training and the other 2 decides that i am no longer welcomed into their "circle". But then again, i won't whine about it. I have plans to become an instructor in the future and i KNOW that i am doing a very good job as it is now, instructing the children's class currently. Whatever happens, i now realise that i should just concentrate on improving my skills, teach and guide them if they want to learn. Beyond that, really nothing much i can do anymore.
6) Find myself a Deshi. You guys can call this whatever you want. Boyfriend, Brother, lover, etc etc. To me everything is just a term of reference. I am not QUALIFIED to be a sensei now. But all i am saying is that i'm looking for someone i can pass my life's experience to, to share what i have learnt in life, to share my aikido, to learn and guide each other through the times of life. I am actually very unsure about this. He told me once that he treated me like his mentor, and he has ever excepted being my Deshi. But he could just do what he did to me.... heartlessly. But be that as it may, i have not given up on him yet. He has his own reasons for doing what he did to me and i believe that. I trust him. I have no choice. He is someone i take as my real little brother and he forever will be. But then i cannot be holding myself in Limbo because of him. Just ONE vacancy. Who ever thinks i'm worth your time and fit to be your "Mentor", please contact me and we shall discuss. I'm giving myself another chance here. I hope it won't be a failure yet again.
Ok. That's all FOR now. I hope the above resolutions are doable.....I guess we will find out in due time. Yes?
Happy 2007 my friends
EarlGrey
Now that the year is coming to a close, have you gotten yourselves any resolutions as is the practice for most people? What have you gained/lost this year? Was it a fruitful year? For me, i have gained little and lost almost everything. Especially lost a big portion of it very near to years' end. All the plans and hopes of celebrating the new year dashed, just like that in an instant. Yet, i have gained many valuable lessons in life through all these episodes. But what has already happened cannot be undone. What's the point of dwelling in it forever, knowing that ultimately, one can only do ones best, and leave the rest up to fate. So for the new year, i have made a few resolutions that i will try to keep/reach. And here they are in no particular order,
1) Earn more money. I have decided that all these while, i have been giving people too much. I'm not a materialistic person by nature, and i always believe that we should always share what we have with the people you love and care about. But because of this, i find myself constantly empty in my wallet. I got him a watch, laptop, paid for his first Aikido lesson. I'm NOT saying this because i am trying to find fault with him, rather, to remind myself that maybe i should be alittle more aware in future. At the end of the day, no one is gonna say "oh wow, you got so much things for him, you are really so good to him." They can just turn their heads around and walk away, like as if there is nothing even worth keeping in the friendship.
2) Build up my career. I think this really dosen't need an explaination right? Don't have career, how to settle down and have a family? Yes..... settle down as in get married and have children. I may be gay, but my "tra la la" still knows its duty in life you know. SHEESH
3) Get myself a car. There are 24 hrs in a day, you get a 10 hr full time job, there are still 14 more hours for you to earn money from. If you spend the time taking public transport, you end up wasting "X" number of hours JUST to commute from point A to B, cutting the time you have left to earn that extra cash to put in the bank every month. A car to me is a tool and something that helps me to earn that extra dollars towards my savings. Dosen't have to be an expensive car. Desiel car also i can. Mini van ALSO can. As long can bring me places can liao.
4) Have at least SGD$10,000 in savings by the end of the year. Ok.... this one is abit far fetched, By hey, we can always aim for a target right? 10k a year, 3 years 30K, then i can open the provision shop i always wanted liao lor..... So if i have my own shop to provide me sustaining income, then use the flexible timing to do something to get that extra income, plus some investment here and there for that passive income. Well.... i think i should be able to get by quite comfortably.
5) Improve my Aikido skills. I love this art alot. I have made great friends through this art and even found people i truely love and care about. But sadly, it was all wishful thinking on my part in the end. He wont even talk or look at me during training and the other 2 decides that i am no longer welcomed into their "circle". But then again, i won't whine about it. I have plans to become an instructor in the future and i KNOW that i am doing a very good job as it is now, instructing the children's class currently. Whatever happens, i now realise that i should just concentrate on improving my skills, teach and guide them if they want to learn. Beyond that, really nothing much i can do anymore.
6) Find myself a Deshi. You guys can call this whatever you want. Boyfriend, Brother, lover, etc etc. To me everything is just a term of reference. I am not QUALIFIED to be a sensei now. But all i am saying is that i'm looking for someone i can pass my life's experience to, to share what i have learnt in life, to share my aikido, to learn and guide each other through the times of life. I am actually very unsure about this. He told me once that he treated me like his mentor, and he has ever excepted being my Deshi. But he could just do what he did to me.... heartlessly. But be that as it may, i have not given up on him yet. He has his own reasons for doing what he did to me and i believe that. I trust him. I have no choice. He is someone i take as my real little brother and he forever will be. But then i cannot be holding myself in Limbo because of him. Just ONE vacancy. Who ever thinks i'm worth your time and fit to be your "Mentor", please contact me and we shall discuss. I'm giving myself another chance here. I hope it won't be a failure yet again.
Ok. That's all FOR now. I hope the above resolutions are doable.....I guess we will find out in due time. Yes?
Happy 2007 my friends
EarlGrey
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