Three Treasures
Monday 11th Jan 08 11:50am
It has been long since i last blogged, i know. Truth is, in between work, personal life and friends, blogging seems not to be of such a priority now. Fellow bloggers will be able to understand what i am trying to say. Of course, that's not to say that i am totally not gonna be blogging anytime soon. Just, not as frequent as would have been liked.
Time flies. It is now the year 2008 and even the Chinese New Year has just been celebrated by the majority of Singaporeans. I had a 2 days open house at my Bungalow in Yio Chu Kang and sent out more then 30 invitations. At the end of the day, only a handful showed up. This is perhaps a testament that unless you are able to give big Ang Baos or are very high profile, you usually won't get a good turn out. I would, however like the thank the following people who made the effort to turn up and grace my occassion. I would like you all to know that i am very honoured and thankful of your kind attendence and if i have been less then a good host, i do beg your pardon. They are:
1) Hisham and friend
2) Varian
3) Jovin
4) My brothers Alan and Qin`An
5) Marcus and friend
6) Leong
7) Chua
8) Colin
In an instant, the full Zodiac cycle has come to pass. Now the new 12 year cycle begins. Are you ready for it? Will it be a better 12 years for us? Will we continue to spiral out of control? I guess only time can tell.
Every year i take stock of what i have lost and gained the previous year. This year, i found out i have lost much more then i have gained.
I have lost Zax, the boy that i have really given my love to, albeit one sided. He left me and with that, a part of me that told me that i could never ever trust nor love anyone else anymore. It was a very painful period for me, having to recover from this. I am still nursing the wounds now.
I have gained insight into the concern and love my siblings have for me. We have gotten closer and i feel the bond with them as time passes. They were there for me when even i did not know i needed them. They could tell that i was hurting like mad and would give me the only thing they can to help ease my pain. By being there. There will be times where i would just vent out on them, they understood. When i would be unreasonable to them, they understood. When i would snap at them, they understood. When i just need time alone, They understood. I am grateful that i have them. I love them so very much. Should i pass on before my time, Let this post be a testament of my graditude to them, for the sorry's that were unspoken, for the thank yous that were not shown. You guys are my treasures.
I have lost much financially. Money wasted on gainless pursutes, fueled by the blinded assumtion of effection. Wrong judgement on investment ventures. Misguided trust and impulsive purchases.
I am just lucky i made it out of 2007 with the help of my siblings.
For all the sorries that were not said,
For all the Thank Yous that were not given,
You Understood.
For all the vents you had to take,
For all the promises broken,
You Understood.
For all the tears you had to shed,
For all the pain you had to bear,
You Understood.
You held my hand when i was about to fall,
You lifted my soul when it could not hold,
I could never have made it without you.
You are the piece that makes me live,
The part that makes me see.
You are the one that i could never make up to.
Let it be known this moment on,
From words not said or shown
I Understand that you Understood.
My friends, my siblings, thank yous can only mean something if it comes from somewhere other then the vocal cords. Where it comes from will be up to the individual giving it to decide for him/herself.
Mine came from the heart.
Would you recieve?
Happy New Year.
EarlGrey
It has been long since i last blogged, i know. Truth is, in between work, personal life and friends, blogging seems not to be of such a priority now. Fellow bloggers will be able to understand what i am trying to say. Of course, that's not to say that i am totally not gonna be blogging anytime soon. Just, not as frequent as would have been liked.
Time flies. It is now the year 2008 and even the Chinese New Year has just been celebrated by the majority of Singaporeans. I had a 2 days open house at my Bungalow in Yio Chu Kang and sent out more then 30 invitations. At the end of the day, only a handful showed up. This is perhaps a testament that unless you are able to give big Ang Baos or are very high profile, you usually won't get a good turn out. I would, however like the thank the following people who made the effort to turn up and grace my occassion. I would like you all to know that i am very honoured and thankful of your kind attendence and if i have been less then a good host, i do beg your pardon. They are:
1) Hisham and friend
2) Varian
3) Jovin
4) My brothers Alan and Qin`An
5) Marcus and friend
6) Leong
7) Chua
8) Colin
In an instant, the full Zodiac cycle has come to pass. Now the new 12 year cycle begins. Are you ready for it? Will it be a better 12 years for us? Will we continue to spiral out of control? I guess only time can tell.
Every year i take stock of what i have lost and gained the previous year. This year, i found out i have lost much more then i have gained.
I have lost Zax, the boy that i have really given my love to, albeit one sided. He left me and with that, a part of me that told me that i could never ever trust nor love anyone else anymore. It was a very painful period for me, having to recover from this. I am still nursing the wounds now.
I have gained insight into the concern and love my siblings have for me. We have gotten closer and i feel the bond with them as time passes. They were there for me when even i did not know i needed them. They could tell that i was hurting like mad and would give me the only thing they can to help ease my pain. By being there. There will be times where i would just vent out on them, they understood. When i would be unreasonable to them, they understood. When i would snap at them, they understood. When i just need time alone, They understood. I am grateful that i have them. I love them so very much. Should i pass on before my time, Let this post be a testament of my graditude to them, for the sorry's that were unspoken, for the thank yous that were not shown. You guys are my treasures.
I have lost much financially. Money wasted on gainless pursutes, fueled by the blinded assumtion of effection. Wrong judgement on investment ventures. Misguided trust and impulsive purchases.
I am just lucky i made it out of 2007 with the help of my siblings.
For all the sorries that were not said,
For all the Thank Yous that were not given,
You Understood.
For all the vents you had to take,
For all the promises broken,
You Understood.
For all the tears you had to shed,
For all the pain you had to bear,
You Understood.
You held my hand when i was about to fall,
You lifted my soul when it could not hold,
I could never have made it without you.
You are the piece that makes me live,
The part that makes me see.
You are the one that i could never make up to.
Let it be known this moment on,
From words not said or shown
I Understand that you Understood.
My friends, my siblings, thank yous can only mean something if it comes from somewhere other then the vocal cords. Where it comes from will be up to the individual giving it to decide for him/herself.
Mine came from the heart.
Would you recieve?
Happy New Year.
EarlGrey
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