Kryptonite
Friday 30th June 06 12:22pm
After 19 years in the making, after many problems from curses to bad scripting, our favourite superhero the Man of Steel has finally returned to our lives in the much anticipated (some might even say forgotten) movie Superman Returns. I went to watch the movie on Thursday alone since no one wanted to go watch it with me and Joey decided that he had enough of my company. I went into the cinema with certian expectations of this epic adventure.
I wasn't dissapointed.
The CGI was wonderful. For the first time, we actually get to see superman FLYING all over town. It looks REAL. And with this movie lies a even more profound message. One that i can totally identify with. Superman has to struggle with love lost, and the fact that maybe, just maybe the mortals didn't need him anymore. It's totally lonely when you are DIFFERENT. Of course, it dosen't help that you cannot tell people who or what you are, and disguise yourself in an image of a total idoit knocking over teacups and rubbish bins. With abilities or powers that you cannot share or identify with others. In this movie, Superman decided that for the sake of the love of his life, which is Lois Lane, by the way for those of you still stuck in "Noobs World", he can only do what is best for her.
He had to let Lois Lane go. That apparently gave him the motivation (or extreme sadness) to actually risk his own exsistence and go up against an Island, yes, an ISLAND of KRYPTIONITE. He survived that ordeal with nothing more then a pain on the side and a terrible headache.
See how powerful the power of love is?
And HOW does that identify with me? Of course i don't go around wearing spandexs inside my clothes. God knows how HOT the bloody weather is here in Singapore. And don't even get me started on the horribly wrong red underwear that identifys the man of steel from an escaped air balloon. Nor am i able to fly around like some mad blue bird or shoot lazers out of my diamond hard corneas. Although, that would be SOOOOO freaking cool.
Rather, i am, like Superman, a lonely person. I have love that cannot be accepted. I have people in my life that shuns me JUST for that fact of what i am. Like i'am some sort of virus that will infect them and turn them over to the "dark side". I have things in my life now like cars, house, money etc etc. That, in itself can make most of us normal mortals feel like having powers. You have no idea what a note of one thousand dollars can buy you.
I have spoken to the person i love recently. It's quite amusing really. He kept insisting to know just WHO the person is that i was refering to on my blog. Kept asking and asking. Actually, He has answered his own question. If he didn't think that he was the one, why bother to ask and ask who the person i love is? It's almost as if he expected me to say "Yes lar..... it's you. I love you, i can't wait to make love to you! HAPPY?!".
But of course, i didn't tell him who it is that i love so dearly. No point. It's not as if by telling him who it is, he will magically turn gay and love me back. But because of this final confirmation of stark voidness, I have made up my mind to actually go into the temple for the monkhood programme soon.
There are many things that i have sinned for. I'am not perfect, that much is clear. In fact, i believe that with my sins as it is, no amount of mediation or sorrys can clear it away. But really, i'am not there to pray for myself. I'am going to hell when i die. That much is established.
I'am there to pray for my father struggling in far away china. I'am there to pray for my mother who has gotten herself caught in the trap of wealth and material possessions. I'am there to pray for my baby sister who is caught in the middle of all these problems. And i'am there to pray for the one i love, so that he will find his life fufilling, that he will somehow forget me, and be healthy and get those results that will ultimately make him successful and have a good and loving family to call his own.
Me? i'am just waiting for my kryptonite to come into my life.
When that happens, will anyone volunteer to stab it into my heart and get rid of this monster for the sake of mankind?
Hopefully.
EarlGrey
After 19 years in the making, after many problems from curses to bad scripting, our favourite superhero the Man of Steel has finally returned to our lives in the much anticipated (some might even say forgotten) movie Superman Returns. I went to watch the movie on Thursday alone since no one wanted to go watch it with me and Joey decided that he had enough of my company. I went into the cinema with certian expectations of this epic adventure.
I wasn't dissapointed.
The CGI was wonderful. For the first time, we actually get to see superman FLYING all over town. It looks REAL. And with this movie lies a even more profound message. One that i can totally identify with. Superman has to struggle with love lost, and the fact that maybe, just maybe the mortals didn't need him anymore. It's totally lonely when you are DIFFERENT. Of course, it dosen't help that you cannot tell people who or what you are, and disguise yourself in an image of a total idoit knocking over teacups and rubbish bins. With abilities or powers that you cannot share or identify with others. In this movie, Superman decided that for the sake of the love of his life, which is Lois Lane, by the way for those of you still stuck in "Noobs World", he can only do what is best for her.
He had to let Lois Lane go. That apparently gave him the motivation (or extreme sadness) to actually risk his own exsistence and go up against an Island, yes, an ISLAND of KRYPTIONITE. He survived that ordeal with nothing more then a pain on the side and a terrible headache.
See how powerful the power of love is?
And HOW does that identify with me? Of course i don't go around wearing spandexs inside my clothes. God knows how HOT the bloody weather is here in Singapore. And don't even get me started on the horribly wrong red underwear that identifys the man of steel from an escaped air balloon. Nor am i able to fly around like some mad blue bird or shoot lazers out of my diamond hard corneas. Although, that would be SOOOOO freaking cool.
Rather, i am, like Superman, a lonely person. I have love that cannot be accepted. I have people in my life that shuns me JUST for that fact of what i am. Like i'am some sort of virus that will infect them and turn them over to the "dark side". I have things in my life now like cars, house, money etc etc. That, in itself can make most of us normal mortals feel like having powers. You have no idea what a note of one thousand dollars can buy you.
I have spoken to the person i love recently. It's quite amusing really. He kept insisting to know just WHO the person is that i was refering to on my blog. Kept asking and asking. Actually, He has answered his own question. If he didn't think that he was the one, why bother to ask and ask who the person i love is? It's almost as if he expected me to say "Yes lar..... it's you. I love you, i can't wait to make love to you! HAPPY?!".
But of course, i didn't tell him who it is that i love so dearly. No point. It's not as if by telling him who it is, he will magically turn gay and love me back. But because of this final confirmation of stark voidness, I have made up my mind to actually go into the temple for the monkhood programme soon.
There are many things that i have sinned for. I'am not perfect, that much is clear. In fact, i believe that with my sins as it is, no amount of mediation or sorrys can clear it away. But really, i'am not there to pray for myself. I'am going to hell when i die. That much is established.
I'am there to pray for my father struggling in far away china. I'am there to pray for my mother who has gotten herself caught in the trap of wealth and material possessions. I'am there to pray for my baby sister who is caught in the middle of all these problems. And i'am there to pray for the one i love, so that he will find his life fufilling, that he will somehow forget me, and be healthy and get those results that will ultimately make him successful and have a good and loving family to call his own.
Me? i'am just waiting for my kryptonite to come into my life.
When that happens, will anyone volunteer to stab it into my heart and get rid of this monster for the sake of mankind?
Hopefully.
EarlGrey
2 Comments:
you sound as if you're the monster... no, the monster is not you it's rather the cycle you're in as in the challenges and struggles you're going through... you're not the monster so don't say as if it is! anyway, if you get closer to God, He will forgive all your sins
there is only one who loves you... that is: God
that's what you think: "I have love that be accepted" (referring to relationship)
but look at the bright side, what about your relationship between your friends?
If you want to forget him, then I advise you to forget him first.
oh yes, it is good to pray for others! for praying for others you may be blessed...
then, that way, hopefully, your fears and struggles will be forgived, forgotten, and back to normal.
so no more monster, and unacceptable love...
=)
mirror mirror i wish you could lie to me. if only wishes could be dreams and if all my dreams could come true.
live on dood! im sure youll find someone whom you love and will love you back in return. (: i wont ask you to turn to God. life is predestined. uh wait i make no sense. anywayss. you will find someone soon. (:. your not old yet. cheerup
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