BAD DAY
Wednesday 28th June 06 07:18am
Well, this is my new blog. Hopefully things will get better for me and troublemakers will no longer exsist in my life. It's impossible, i know. But hey, one must always look at the bright side of things. Afew changes i have to bring to note. One, i have discontinued the tagboard on my blog. In place, i have activated the comments section of my blog. This will give my readers, if ANY at all, a larger place to place their comments on. But please. Give only proper educated comments please.
I have also reset my stat counter on my site. This is so that people don't think i'am cheating by bringing over the previous numbers from my old blog.
I have been seriously thinking about all that has happened these few days. Ultimately, there are still so many people who cannot accept my type of lifestyle. Perhaps it really IS true that special people are always the most lonely.
I went to consult my fortune teller on Monday. She told me that the person i love also has feelings for me. But in his life, he has already got a wife written for him. She went on further to say that he still does not know what path he wants to take yet. But if he begins to fall for me, the wife will dissappear from his life. When i heard it, i was not happy at all. Indeed, i was filled with regret. I regretted ever knowing him in the first place. I can not, will not cause him to lose the normal life that has already been written for him. The kids that he was supposed to have.
I truely love him. More then anything in the world. There is only one thing that i can do in this case. I have to stop contact with him. I will also have to stop my Aikido lessons or change a Dojo to train in. It is better for him to forget me, hate me even. At the end of the day, he will be happier. And that's all that matters to me.
I am also in the process of entering monk-hood soon. I do not know for how long. But i need some time to find my own self-worth. I will make some final arrangements and i should do it by year's end. Hopefully by the time i'am finished, most people have already forgotten the monster that has came into their lives and made things so complicated for them.
ME
EarlGrey
Well, this is my new blog. Hopefully things will get better for me and troublemakers will no longer exsist in my life. It's impossible, i know. But hey, one must always look at the bright side of things. Afew changes i have to bring to note. One, i have discontinued the tagboard on my blog. In place, i have activated the comments section of my blog. This will give my readers, if ANY at all, a larger place to place their comments on. But please. Give only proper educated comments please.
I have also reset my stat counter on my site. This is so that people don't think i'am cheating by bringing over the previous numbers from my old blog.
I have been seriously thinking about all that has happened these few days. Ultimately, there are still so many people who cannot accept my type of lifestyle. Perhaps it really IS true that special people are always the most lonely.
I went to consult my fortune teller on Monday. She told me that the person i love also has feelings for me. But in his life, he has already got a wife written for him. She went on further to say that he still does not know what path he wants to take yet. But if he begins to fall for me, the wife will dissappear from his life. When i heard it, i was not happy at all. Indeed, i was filled with regret. I regretted ever knowing him in the first place. I can not, will not cause him to lose the normal life that has already been written for him. The kids that he was supposed to have.
I truely love him. More then anything in the world. There is only one thing that i can do in this case. I have to stop contact with him. I will also have to stop my Aikido lessons or change a Dojo to train in. It is better for him to forget me, hate me even. At the end of the day, he will be happier. And that's all that matters to me.
I am also in the process of entering monk-hood soon. I do not know for how long. But i need some time to find my own self-worth. I will make some final arrangements and i should do it by year's end. Hopefully by the time i'am finished, most people have already forgotten the monster that has came into their lives and made things so complicated for them.
ME
EarlGrey
2 Comments:
heyya. you got a fren in meee - mcfly. (: anywayy. yey im the first to post a comment. well almost the first. x). ITS BEEN NICE KNOWING YOUUU (:. STAY STRONG!
Don't be affected by a few prejudiced persons.
http://melancholic-dreaming.blogspot.com/2006/06/minority-groups-homosexuals.html
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